Everyone at the Foundation is so proud of this young man’s achievements and the beautiful kind heart that lies at the core of his words. He is a perfect example of why the Christina Noble Children’s Foundation works so hard to continue to provide the facilities, guidance and care that supports the educational and emotional development of these young men during this difficult time in their lives.
A Letter To My Mother
Many people start their letter with “Hello” but I wanted to be a little bit different from everyone else. I would like to start instead with “The sun shines on the earth when you have your mother with you”. I am starting my letter this way because I wish and pray that my mother is well and happy. I am writing these words as I am thinking deeply about you, my dear mum.
I know that you are sensitive. I don’t want you to cry after reading this because your young son is so far away that he cannot hold your hand or wipe away your tears. I am missing you so much. I miss the times that I would get upset and you would do everything you could to make me happy again, like holding me in your warm arms and beautiful heart. I wish I was close enough to hold you. I wish I could walk with you in the stillness of the calm evenings.
My dearest mother, I promise to be with you as soon as I can. Please don’t worry about me so much. I know you mum, and I know how concerned you are about me but please try not to be. Your little son is being really good and one day when the sun shines beautifully I will fly to you just like the birds in springtime.
I am realising how difficult this life can be if you miss one step or if you start on the wrong path. People don’t realise until they make a mistake. I am realising everything now, now that I have made a big mistake in my life.
Mum, I will try my best to achieve good things in life because only you, my mother, has forgiven me. Your son is not a rich person who could shower people in gold or silver but I will become just like you who showers people in love and happiness, and is respected by all who you meet.
You have always been there to shine your light on me and warm me every time I made a mistake. Even now I feel you so close to me, even though you are so very far away from me. I love you my dear mother, I love you so very much. I will change my ways and return to you as a good and well behaving boy who everyone can be proud of. You have been the sun shining on me until now but when I return I promise to be the sun shining down on you for the rest of your life.
Your son has been very foolish in the past few years. Ever since I was a little boy I have always wanted and prayed for one thing: to have my father back, for me and for you. I wished for us all to have a long and happy life together but instead I now realise that he dumped us just like a finished cigarette.
God didn’t receive my prayers but now, mother, this is no longer my wish. I know that he won’t come back to us. Please forgive your child for being such a foolish young boy. I used to think that I could dream my father back even though he left us in such a difficult situation. We didn’t have any food to treat ourselves, or coal to warm our home. I used to cry and ask for my father because I thought that if I cried hard enough he would come back to us.
I cannot apologise enough for not being a good son. I saw that you were crying when you asked “how could he ever abandon this beautiful child?” I know you, my dear mother, and I know that you secretly wished and hoped that he would return to us too. I now know that your hope, like mine, is gone.
I will not ask you again for my father back, for you are all that I need for my life. I am very appreciative of everything you have done for me and I haven’t said “I love you” anywhere near enough. I am so sorry for being such a bad boy; indeed, I owe you so much. I am sorry for not realising this until now. You are the sunshine of my life and the mother’s milk that nourishes my body and soul. I consider myself the luckiest person in the entire world. I am this because I have you – my beautiful mother, who waits for me to come back to her despite everything that I have done. The sun will shine only because of you, the queen of my kingdom.
With all my love,